I'm breaking format and talking in present day because people have asked me about the term 5th chakra. God love the internet, where you can begin by looking for a paint color for your bedroom wall and end up writing a blog about yourself! That is how it happened. I do love the randomness of a search!
The 5th chakra is that little spot at the base of my throat where grief and sadness have been blocked... pushed down and never to be revealed or dealt with. If you've ever wanted to cry and you felt pain in your throat... that's the area. If you learn to open that area it is the beginning of self expression. This is where I am right now: learning to be more self-aware and dealing with pain instead of avoiding it.
Just as anyone of any heritage can say "Oh look at the little bambino.", the 5th chakra is just the right term, right now. I am not an "Eastie" nor have I joined a cult or gone off the deep end.
Why am I writing in public format? Hello! I live with all men... even the cat and dog are males. There is no talk with any emotional significance unless I am the driver! Also, I think many people have learned to minimize and put on a happy face, hoping that time will just ease the intensity and that is the healing to them. Not for me. If I push down grief, it pops up at some very weird and inconvenient times and that has made me feel like the proverbial "hysterical woman". Then, of course, I push that shame down on top of the grief. You can see where this is going. My losses are smaller than many. I have not felt the grief of losing my parents. Having said that, my losses are painful and very real to me. They hurt very badly and the loss of our family's dealership... well, that is the tsunami that brought it all into the open. I will get to that loss another day.
For now,everyone, have a wonderful holiday weekend. Jo
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